Ok my previous post was crappy and should not even be published, but Im gonna leave it there anyway. Apparently, remnants of my narcisstic self still persists.
Many times I have had to do things alone, therefore, Im so used to getting things done by myself. Even if the quality does not match up to expectations, at least I know I have done my best and I wont have any regrets. When group members or other ppl start coming into my life, I just get defensive and still want things my way.
Things changed around 2mths ago of cos, when dearie entered my life as a gf. I know that I cannot carry on life as a narcissist and self-centred jerk (well these two traits occur half the time). I do feel myself being a better person with dearie around. I know that I do not exactly bare my heart to people (for one thing there isnt really much to bare, its usually just ranting which I will solve soon) but Im really glad that dearie is still around me to give me the morning sms and that she is there for me to say goodnight to. Of cos I can do it to anybody else, but I wont..
I am in still control of my life, but now, I am glad that there is someone out there who wants to share it with me. I can feel my narcissistic self dying... Good.
SG
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