Friday, 13 March 2009

I know I have a heart, and I soooo gotta use it.

Another confiding session, another resolution, another leap of progress.

Is logic an impediment/defensive facade to our true feelings and what we wish to do?

Instead of putting up a best self in front of the person we love, will letting vulnerabilities show (of cos not be a weak kitten la) actually be a better way of fostering love?

Is letting your loved one worry a privilege rather than a chore?

Is love irrational? Is it supposed to be irrational?

Is being in a relationship all about being the perfect person, or about being the happiest couple possible?

Are the tangible stuff more important than the intangible stuff?

The feeling that someone is out there to care for you, worry for you, is probably one of the deepest underlying reason that gives us meaning to spring out of bed every morning to start a new day!! Being perfect is not as easy as being comfortable, so why not just take the comfortable way when in a r/s? Ironically, it could actually be the formula to the most perfect r/s, than to strive for perfection as the best bf or gf. And of cos, in order to feel comfortable and happy, we do not need to use our brain for that (well technically we do, but lets avoid the amygdala) . We need our heart for that, and I am SOOO gonna start using it.

SG

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

Near death!!! AGAIN!!

My fan exploded just now. The rotors exploded into 8 pieces, and the grille cage popped out. Some of the shrapnels landed at my feet, when I was just 5 feet away doing my report. I escaped unscathed, luckily....

Dearie advised me to go to the temple, which I will do, to pray for being blessed that I escaped such an accident. I did think of suing the company for a while there, but I doubt I will go take I that trouble. I will just remember the name "GAZZ" forever.

Whenever such near death incidents occur to me, I never fail to recall the numerous other near death incidents I encountered. 3 of which were during army time, during the Brunei training (Trees collapsing near me and I saw X-trees....). 1 other one during ATEC (almost got a pointy tree trunk in my gut). This fan thing is my 5th incident. I think there was one incident that involved a car, but I cant remember that anyway. Basically, I cheated death SOOOO many times!!!!

I am truly grateful for all the days that I have lived, and all the days that I will be living. I have always been motivated to be nice and help others, not cos I wanna better my karma, but because I really like it. And being alive after all these near-misses really gives me added joy in life. And the need for good karma! :P

SG