Some poem I wrote for CS

The following poem got the theme from the picture. My friend initiated some "competition", more like friendly displays of poetic work and I participated. Enjoy..

A familiar silhouette centred in the mercury lustre,

Just like an angel emanating silver light.

The sophistication under the silver car hood,

And behind the tinted windscreen

The sleek tyres of your ride

Reminds of immaculate charm

Vroom mechanism turns the car on, and also the beholder’s curious adrenaline.

The yellow glow from the headlights and corridor almost seem to beckon,

A siren’s song from the humming engine.

Silver hypnotism brings onlookers’ footsteps closer in

Nearing and into the mercury lustre

Hoping to savour the inner beauty within the metal sheath

A glimpse of the enigmatic silhouette in the driver’s seat

Dar Slypenk Clow onk Youtiup.. Ank mor..Dam unkgram

No I havent gone crazy (not yet at least..) and my keyboard is working fine.. Dear readers, try to pronounce what is written on the title. If u find it a chore, so do I. However, I will not be the one creating this example of poor phonics, I am the one experiencing it!!

Im halfway thru my first wk in school. Let me get on to the fun part first cos it inspired me so much that I decided I had to blog it first thing when I get home. I had my first lesson with my Psych Stats 1 lecturer. Dr S, as we will call her henceforth, is definitely some Chinese lecturer. And her pronunciation of English is exactly as exemplified in my title: Broken and fu**ing irritating..

Btw the title is supposed to be spelt (and pronounced as stated) this way: The Sleeping Clown on You-tube.. And more..Damn unglam

The title itself is an enigma which I will address soon.

I never had so much misery and torture having to last through a lecture. Stats are boring enough and the pain just grows exponentially, with poor delivery. I can understand that Dr S is trying to market herself so that ppl will choose her tutorial grps (she seems v concerned that students will choose the other tutor, if they arent gonna do so, I AM..). In her marketing techniques, she tries to add humour into her delivery and somehow the lecture grp can be observed to be reciprocating her humour with murmurs and decent laughter. Maybe it's just me but I dun find her jokes funny at all.. And her teaching is not the clearest possible. I think I may just skip her lessons in future and befriend the textbook. Also when I asked her a qn, she gave me an "I think.." answer. "I thinks.." make me raise eyebrows as much as replies like "Whatever" and "Anything".. Basically apprehension and lack of confidence. (Again, much as these three replies are used by me sometimes, I really hate myself for using them. And I am trying to refrain from the usage.)

Aniwai I hair enar or torkeng arbao hur..(Anyway I had enough of talking about her)(I can SWEAR she will pronounce it like this, her stressing of plosives and fricatives are really haywire and screwed). Im not yet a full-fledged grammar Nazi like BitchY but at least spare the ears..Now I will talk about myself, again...

Due to the poor delivery, I fell asleep. Nothing surprising... I slept thru half my lectures in JC anyway.. In JC, I always sat with friends who would poke, nudge, kick, slap.. (u name it I have it all) me when I doze. In uni though, I am quite a lone ranger. Maybe it is because I dun want anyone to disturb me during the lecture? Or more probably, it is because I hardly have any new friends to tag along with.. (Im not anti-social really, but the circumstances in uni force everyone to become at most hi-bye friends.. And my old friends are not taking psych mods..) So I fell asleep without anyone waking me.. (It happens on public transport as well when I am alone..)

Ppl who have seen me doze off have probably lost count of how hilarious I look when I snooze. (If u haven seen it, TOO BAD!! cos there will be no re-enactments.. Just count yr lucky stars..)
And today during Dr S's phonetically irritating lecture, I dozed in the most comical way, head arching backwards, mouth ajar... (I observed that I only sleep in this position when I am absolutely tired, which I am due to this poor wk of slp).. Thus I slpt twenty minutes in this vulnerable position.. (I say vulnerable because most pranksters, which I have experienced before, luckily only once, put the weirdest things inside the mouth.) Anyway, when I awoke, nobody laughed at me (which usually happens). They probably laughed enough during my sleep.

Another case happened on Monday when I was on the bus home. Again, bad nights and bad bumpy ride made "zhou gong" a very apt companion.. So I slept nodding.. Then when I woke, two secondary gals who were next to me were just saying "You know, we should have recorded that down and You-tubed it.." At first I was thinking (for both somnolent cases) that the ppl around me can be such asses, especially when they laugh at me.. But then I hardly gave a damn after the first min of being pissed. I was more irritated at myself for giving them the opportunity to laugh at me.. After being pissed at myself, I hardly gave a damn anymore (Been there, done that.. What is another mockery??).. So essentially, Im voluntarily allowing myself to be a sitting duck for laughs without restraint..

Resolution * : Boost my consciousness about self.. ie If I am gonna slp in public, it has to be glamourous... Haha I was just kidding with that.. Basically, stop dozing in public.. (This is resolution * with the asterisk because this is the shittiest yet arguably the most impt resolution I have made of all time).

Epilogue

I finally managed to convince my sloth to complete this resolute epic.

Just a recap:
1. Eat less shit and stop emulating the habits of a pig
2. Resurrect the lost art of sleeping early
3. Kill the P word.. synonymous with undeserving delay (and impunctuality).
4. Get the heck out of here (more often at least).

New definitions:
5. My definition of a good kid and a good person. (Learning spirit and Decisiveness)

Another few:
6. We actually have a king!... And the fourth branch of authority is a disturbing pressure cooker.

7. There is no such thing as facts.. It only depends on how persuasive someone is at getting us to believe his/her claims, and how successful some other ppl are at refuting these claims. (Laws of Nature are undoubtedly the most "factual" ones but I still believe that these Laws fall under this new definition).. Ironically, my claim about facts falls under its own claim too.

8. Im wasting too much time. Going out is becoming a chore and equivalent to shaking the money tree vigorously. Im gonna give part-time tuition. And become a more useful person. And probably become more reclusive..

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Justification for the resolutions are really quite self-explanatory. Eating less shit, becoming less piggy, killing of P and sleeping early are pretty much on the route of being a better person, just that it is a lot more helpful to be specific and improve step-by-step. In this case, it is probably four steps at a time, but it can be done. And btw, travel is really impt. It opens one's eyes to the shit and beauty of the world (sometimes even simultaneously.. shitty beauty?!), allows us to cherish whatever we have, cosmopolitan spirit.. Learning spirit.. New cultures (the orgasmic pair of food and music), exposure to new beliefs so as to enhance ours. And oil prices are on the rise (I dun foresee it going down at all).. Global warming is flooding and heating the wrong places.. Basically, there are too many reasons to drive ppl to travel. Popular culture (I scorn its stupidity half the time) is one of them but those are for the wrong reasons. I believe the ones I quoted above are less superficial and more convincing.

Learning spirit and decisiveness is really important to the wellness of one. Replies like "Anything..", "Whatever..", basically are lazy replies which implies lack of thought and decisiveness, and probably even the lack courage to impose one's decision. Much as everyone, including myself, uses such frivolous replies at one time or another (mainly due to laziness), excessive use makes it irritating. Also, my personal observation is that most ppl who I find are successful, or on the route to success, possess both these attributes. So work on it... And kids nowadays really need these qualities. They aren't learning the rite things, the rite way, or from the rite persons.

The recently added resolutions are more touchy, but Im still gonna harp on it anyway. Pt 6 is true (who am I to say what is true, especially with Pt 7 coming up, but that is my two cents' worth). Jaya probably believes that too. And there are many deceiving entities around, so dun plainly believe whatever is presented. Just look at the American election results vs pundits' bets..

Pt 7 is pretty much explained on its own. I cant recall what brought me to this theory. Maybe it was the result of higher learning? Or the plethora of academic debate.. Moreover, after the deluge of readings, I have realised that we are still an immature civilisation (We dun even know how to utilise and live well with our environment for goodness sake!).. Such irritants just affirm my pt.

Lastly, I really am wasting too much time. My constant binges and late night out sicken me. Social life is important and has never lost its imptance but I believe I am overdoing it one time too many. Time has a new definition now and the axiom "Time is Money" has gotta make sense sometimes soon ie now.. Much as this mercenary axiom is defeating my purpose of life, (it is truly a waste of life to live for work), I am seeking to pave a better path for the future, then when things are settled, the true meaning of life can enter the picture. Basically, suffer now, enjoy later. No one is getting any younger, and ageism is forever existent, so I guess the rationale is clear.

Ok I believe I have imparted enough of my philosophy (be it resurrected or newborn beliefs).. We will see again in 365 days, (no, 366 days.. it's a leap year this 2008) and along the way, how progress has progressed. All the best to my readers' resolutions too..

It's about time... For some New Year resolutions... 2

This is part 2 in case ppl haven noticed...

First and foremost, I wish to address a friend's query on whether I have broken any NY resolutions. Well it appears good that the answer is NO but the resolutions werent very hard to fulfil in the first place anyway. I cant really remember what they were, but I know that they are pretty cliched thus pretty easy to fulfil. (Probably something vague like "I want to be a better self and everything". I wasnt very serious previously.)

Im gonna stop here for a while. Cos I know that Im not in the right frame of mind (Im yawning) and resolution (One of my resolution is to sleep early. Look at the time! It's 1am. Diao....) to accurately and religiously blog about the 101 shit that went thru my head before/during/after 2007/2008. (Such transitions really make writing tedious).. So Im gonna carry on soon.

Meanwhile as an organised reminder for my future continuation..

Resolution: 1. Eat less shit and stop emulating the habits of a pig
2. Resurrect the lost art of sleeping early
3. Kill the P word.. synonymous with undeserving delay. I recall this resolution from last yr. Improvement is observed in 2007 but more can be (needs to be?) done.
4. Get the heck out of here (more often at least). Looking at the world thru screens really suck. (Note that I almost placed the word "permanently" after the word "here" but the reason for that's not meant to be blogged)

I never believed in quoting good health, good life (I killed this resolution after last yr) and good grades cos we are supposed to be resolved to doing such things, both as a person (Man is supposed to instinctively live a healthy good life) and an SG person (this little red dot has trained us well in being grade conscious).

Other shit 5. My definition of a good kid and a good person. (Learning spirit and Decisiveness) "Good" is a really bad (the following comment applies to "bad" too) adjective to use when blogging. I can think of 101 (not literally of cos) words to substitute these two common words under pressure but not when Im blogging. Irritating..

6. I cant recall some of the stuff I intended to write. Just a disclaimer. If I suddenly dun find the need, or effort to carry on this entry, it will end like this. It contradicts one of my resolution in some sense, but after noting these stuff down, I find that I have the crux and its pretty self-explanatory. The details that are supposed to follow are just reasons and revelations. Not exactly need-to-knows. Grill me if curiosity is pestering you dear reader.

Meanwhile. Happy New Year 2008!! (My greetings are always overdue cos I havent got used to such greetings. Am I a rude, overdue-in-greetings, party recluse? Almost..And its probably gonna stay) And btw I observed the poor organisation of thought and heavy use of brackets in this post. It has always been my trademark of blogging (glad that it did not spill over to schoolwork) so if this entry is not reader-friendly, take yr time. Re-read if need be, whatever. Its not that hard to comprehend really.