The dread is over... I think.

Took so long (too long..) for the exams and driving test to pass.. I decided to vomit the bad blood (almost literally) out only when all the shit is over. A quick summary: Exam results will probably be "B"s and the number of "A"s will be insignificant. As for driving, I still hate it till my last breath...

Btw it may get volcanic from here on, so be slayed or be gone..

I will start with exams first. It truly amazes me how almost every examination paper I attended had mistakes. Ranging from typos, to the lack of key words.. Seriously wonder how serious the profs are at setting papers. They disclose past papers from us so they can reuse past exam qns. (This is the case for real, they even admitted it). I understand that some subjects need to do so cos there are little qns to set, but overall, its pretty lame a system. The students hardly get practice and for the school's info, some ppl are taking exams for the first time in like 2-3 yrs. Im pretty glad my first two papers were over early, cos they were the most memory intensive papers (looking at how little arguments are required and how much info they expect u to know, I doubt I am wrong in saying that). Have always known I was more hands-on, so the last two papers suited me well. And for one thing, the hands-on modules were more generous (they better be anyway) with the past yr papers.

I had contemplated on changing my yet-to-be-finalised major. I think the system is pretty bad here, testing the wrong part of the brain (at least from what I infer from the 1101). However, my interest for it is too strong for me to give it up, and its probably cos the level one mods are meant to test the wrong side of the brain anyway. (Moreover the other mods I considered are deemed "not as useful" by our fine monarchy, so no point rite. Stick to the lucrative and pragmatic..)

Im getting long-winded over exams, considering that I forgot half of wat I was gonna write about it. O well, its probably best to forget the shit anyway.

Next lamentation will be driving... This will be more explosive..

I had a freaking bad nite slp the nite before. I was fucking confident of passing (seriously Im gonna be driven crazy by the amount of confidence I have in myself sometimes) and was even planning on the sms to send everyone on hearing the good news. Dun worry, such idiotic moments are very rare. This is just the second episode of such a silly thot in my life.

Skipping to the actual test. The circuit came first. Somehow I was VERY nervous this time round. Min told me that it could be due to the stress of wanting, almost needing, to pass on the 2nd try. I think that was the case, cos I dun recall such shit stress the first time round. We took a stroll round the circuit first cos half the world was using the stations. I got ten points in my first station: S course... I have always found the crank course harder but somehow the S fucked things up. Anyway, there were like 3 cars in the S course at the same time (guess who took the middle.. :S). Things were looking good, at least I thot. Then some ass motherfucker (really gotta forgive the crude language) who was behind me started horning.. My tester.. His surname is YEAP.. (gotta make a mental note to condemn him too), got kpo and went out to investigate. He only said two words when he returned: Strike kerb.. I was like WHAT the F??!! Never once had I struck the kerb in an S course before, and the maiden experience had to be so timely. And to make things even more exciting, it was the "vigilante" motherfucker behind me who had to poke his nose into my biz. Seriously Yeap wont know anything if the MF did not honk. Ok that got me A LOT MORE NERVOUS.. I was telling myself, dun fuck the rest and maybe u will barely scrap thru. Anyway I aced my parking with zero errors, same as my first try.. (Hello, the most impt component in the circuit is my forte so pass me, assholes..) I have never thought of any practical use for the other stations cos they will hardly, if not ever, be used. Not by me at least, moreover hardly anywhere in SG have such shit areas like S-shaped or cranked roads.

Out to the road. Things were looking well. The traffic condition was as good as the previous test. Cars actually gave way to me. I think they just got scared when they saw two L plates. Anyway things were fine. And Yeap actually tested me route 3 instead of route 1. Weird but watever. Essentially after the drive, he said I did not speed at the rite times (This is the freakin same comment I got during the first test). If they accepted video-evidence, I will show them the countless number of times my instr told me to slow down cos I was driving as though I already passed. I know I can drive, never doubted it (This I dare to say with full conviction). I guess its just the exam jitters. I get men twice or 2.5 times my age sitting next to me all the time (I thot this statement is quite a misleading farce but its true), but somehow the vibe differs. I get nervous in front of the wrong ppl. Yeap flawed me not only for improper use of speed on a clear road (ie speed when the road is clear). He thought I deserved to fail cos he said I was holding half-clutch too often and not letting engine brake operate on the car. For one thing, thats how I drove since who knows when. Ppl haven died from it, and they wont. Whatever logic on the flaws of using half-clutch for driving doesnt apply to me practically cos I know what Im doing, ass. Anyway, I think there are others to be blamed for this bad habit of half-clutch, including myself probably. Either way, the reason he gave to fail me was VERY unsatisfactory. Harping on the half-clutch thing does not make me an inefficient driver (please correct me if Im wrong). And from what I see, the ticks he awarded me were for minor errors. If not for the strike kerb, I will only have got 22 pts. Well its a lot of pts really but take away the jitters (I believe this is the main reason y I scored so badly) and add some benevolence (which I think Yeap and the motherfucker who honked me lacks, a lot), and we will get a happy man here (ME!). But anyway I thot two circuit lessons before this second test is insufficient anyway (couldnt help it due to the one circuit per week rule), and this new flaw which Yeap discovered, about the half-clutch is a latent detriment. So it was a handicap to begin with. It just sucks to know yr mistakes after failing.

I really thought of giving up on driving at first. Not cos Im a quitter, but I really am starting to lose focus. I dun see why I must be compelled to learn this, supposedly important, social skill when I know I wont drive AT ALL in like at least 15 years. Sure its a good skill in times of emergency and all the trivial benefits fall in, but seriously I never liked driving, probably will remain that way. I blew my first test due to my incompetence (my tester was good, at least I thot so) and I flunked my second one due to jitters and motherfuckers (tester included) from the planet Jinx. If not for half the world telling me to carry on learning, I wont. After all, my PDL and school membership is expiring. Im not sure if I need to retake Final theory again since its nearly one yr since I passed. Moreover, Im really pretty certain that I wont drive AT ALL. We are known to be second (previously first) for having the most EX car ownership. Too many motherfuckers on the road who jaywalk (I have seen hordes of family jaywalk on a red light as I was turning), as if they have nine lives and cars which never seem to give way. There are too many odds, too little incentives, against my pursuit in learning how to drive. It is not always that moral support is the pivotal factor in my decisions but I think majority wins this time. Someone told me (paraphrased) that this unforgiving system makes driving hard to pass and failing the retest just affirms its difficulty. I never found myself destined to drive a car, but Im gonna prove this supposedly fucked up system that I will survive it. Someone even suggested that switching to auto will make things easier. Three alternatives, one choice by one me. We will see

(The only joy I get from failing is knowing that I wont be able to pollute the environment.)