When u have found a primary objective, everything else just becomes secondary

I really should not be writing this entry cos I know if I dun get my ass moving, I will be late for class again. And Im on MSN with beth and BitchY so I know Im gonna drag. However, I was just inspired to be write again, and chat..

The title of this post is really apt. For one thing, I remember this quote from last night and I decided to draw on its relevance. There are many things in life we can choose to pursue but we dun want to, either cos we dun feel like it, or maybe cos we have never placed it in our sights due to our primary objective. The primary aim is so focused that it can make ppl become like race-horses wearing blinds during the race; just look forward and go. Apparently, a friend told me that the donkeys have this in their genes, they just walk straight without being distracted by the side happenings. Maybe that's why they are labelled "stupid". Is it really stupid? I thot focus is always something most ppl dun have and its rather intelligent if someone manages to attain it.

Ppl have asked me why I dun make an effort to pursue the things that I do not have. I have thot over that qn too. My favourite rebuttal will be that the need is not there. My second will be that the thing to pursue really do not meet my expectations. Why is the need not there? Why are expectations up in the sky?

I guess the need is not there cos Im too independent and prefer things done solo. Kind of heartening to know that I have a pretty well-knitted social life despite the predilection for solitude. Sounds lame but I really think its true. I dun even mind solo travelling for crying out loud, despite the voiced protests around.

The expectations part is a little tricky here. Personally, I dun expect so much. But there are circumstances that make benchmarks high. For everything...

As said, when u have a primary objective, everything else just becomes secondary and probably even frivolous. To make something un-frivolous, it will require the cause to be worth yr effort (need) and the cause better be something that is worthwhile such that it can blend into yr limited social space and future (Im talkin expectations here, I think this is one revelation for most readers..).

I think ppl are getting lost here. It sounds like a math equation and the stipulated terms are rather misleading but I really have put everything into the best words possible. (Somehow I have a fetish now for misleading ppl and satisfied that I know sth ppl dun.. Sounds malevolent. But in this case, the fetish is not there.. If u dun get it, too bad haha)..

After all this, it appears that Im real practical and pragmatic yada yada. Why dun I just go by my feel-likes.. Yes I admit, things have called for such practicalism. As I was telling one of my buds that day, feel-likes screw ppl's lives cos they hardly think whether their feel-likes meet their need and expectations. Well, maybe its in me all along, all this practicalism, just that I decided to show it more explicitly nowadays. Is that part of growing up? Or is it just that primary objectives have proved a need for such pragmatism to come in? If everyone starts using their brain and pragmatism, then what about the "feel-likes"?

I am done with my post. One unanswered qn? So what the heck will be this primary objective. For one thing I dun really know. Maybe its a blend of many mini-objectives. Furthermore, even if I know, its probably not gonna be known to another for a v long time.

Readers may find this one shitty entry cos they dun seem to understand half of what Im talking about. In that case, ponder on the other half that u guys understand and see what can be drawn on. If it sounds philosophical, cant be helped... The nature of things started with the philosophical question mark anyway. Speaking of Philo, its one subject that is unconsciously screwing me. I haven read that book for a v long time. Missed one lect and gonna miss the one tml cos Im so sick of going for it. Well its on webcast so ya. And the essays due for it dun seem like my cup of tea, at all. Its fun to think of ideas but really irritating to put it into words sometimes. Yet, what is the point of having ideas when u cant communicate them.

Bitten by the Philo bug...Time to walk forward and not stray, again..