I can feel the force..

For one thing, Im not imitating "Star Wars".. And for the other thing, the "force" seems to be self-afflicted. I havent felt academic stress for like years and it takes a while to adapt to it again, especially when its much more prodigious than before.

The mid-module assessments like term papers, tests etc are giving me a major headache. I know that there is the Recess Week to play with but I think it is insufficient. Thus Im already doing prep for such stuff now already, and stressing myself up voluntarily. Somehow much as I hate to admit it, but Im probably nerdified, again....

Someone asked me if Im gonna start looking for a gf in this academic phase. Considering the fact that I turned off my efforts for the past previous phases, this is the last round (I do not consider Masters to be an academic phase now). Well I think I am making (I probably should too) some effort but somehow studies still cloud my mind and tempt me to be a nerd. I haven been going out enough recently, and I hate this transmogrification into something that I so hate to be.

I think its all in the mind, ie its all my own doing... Maybe after all my nerd work this sem and I get decent grades, I will tone down a little and get myself new experiences... Maybe... Its now or never to get sth non-grades from school.

Just an academic update: I havent read enough of my textbooks and lecture notes. Haven created my own notes (my tradition) for numerous lectures. Giving too much time to USP writing module (having to find a bloody text for critique)...Placing my impt modules ie USP, Psych and Eng mods, much above exposure modules ie PHilo and SW.... I can hardly remember the time I really put effort in PH and SW... However these disciplines cant really be studied; even if they can, I havent mastered their applications....

There's the irritating worry that Im way behind many ppl in terms of work but maybe Im not that far back, probably in front of many in fact... But somehow there's no gauge to look to. I have seen how ppl went crazy over studies (both literally and metaphorically)... And I can also see myself dangerously treading along that line. Nonetheless, I know I wont end up in any undesirable state. No worries ppl.